Thread:Mott2020/@comment-29739768-20200122141920/@comment-44798646-20200126083701

Hey,🦋👋Shlopsky.(what is a Shlopsky?🤔😍what an interesting name😸is it mix of names? 👆😃Is it your secret spy name so you can’t say😳🤫🤫😱-if so, that’s ok, I’m just👃like with everybody else😁-but within a safe parameter of course. I 📝until your eyes fall out but not TOOOO personal so some yucko could find. Of course💻if anybody REALLY wanted to...but, I couldn’t figure out how to register for this forum or how to go to the right place here!🤣🤣I think everyone is safe from me!😅phew! The worst thing I can do is make you 🏃🏼‍♀️🏃🏽‍♂️🚣🏻‍♂️🏇🏽🏊🏼‍♂️🏄🏽‍♀️🚴🏻‍♂️🧗🏼‍♂️🧚🏻‍♂️🧞‍♂️away🗣🙀from my “novels”😂🤣😁😍but not on 🐱puuuuurrrrpoooosse!😍😅😃

Lemonade IS 😋 yummy😃 I am ALSO a master maker!😃😃 Not sure I’ve exactly enjoyed ALL of the lemons, some were really really sour with brown spots,😉😄but I threw the juice in with extra sugar and drank it on down...ahhhhh😋😁 It did give me the burps though🤣.

I’m 46 in years but very aged, ahem, wise👍,in experience. I have some wrinkles and white hair, skipped gray🤪,and I know who’s name is on each one😄😄but why does it have to look like a🦄and stick up right in the front of my head?😩😩Seriously, it won’t cooperate,it sticks straight out&up!🦄

I am the result of the totality of my experiences, as are we all, but, like you, I wouldn’t want to go back.Not in the sense that I’d want to go back to do it all over. I don’t want to “relive my youth or reclaim anything” like that.

I married the wrong person (HINDSIGHT’S🏆💰!🤓)and it was pretty awful for 20 years😪🍺...and now I’m making lemonade and setting up a stand to sell it I have so much😂😃. But, I wouldn’t change it because I am strong, I am Tawanda😄,(you old enough to get that one?😄) and I wouldn’t have the child I have now. I was told I couldn’t have children and then,2 months later,🤰🤱my gift from heaven!That was a whole other challenge that put ME through the ringer but HE was PERFECT!!!😍😍😍

He’s autistic, a challenging difference,sure, but not a negative-has positives we mere neurotypicals dont👍. MY kid can SMELL COLORS!! I mean, come on, that’s pretty😎😎😎Orange and purple have distinct tastes and smells when he sees them! My brain doesn’t do that!😃Autistic brains are Neuroatypical. It’s just different, not bad. Challenging for sure! But also,wonderful, the way he sees the world. He’s taught me more in 17 years than the previous 29 of life. Learning through his eyes,the best I can...

As awesome as he is, my glasses are not rosey, they’re real. He’s also obstinate, rude, extremely difficult...you know, a teenager 😂, he’s absolutely brilliant intellectually, he can argu...ahem, I mean debate like a pro (and he’s never practiced a bit, it’s allllllllll natural 😁😁-maybe a future lawyer?🧐🤔👨🏻‍⚖️...)he’s also kind, loving, gentle, an animal”whisperer”, and has an extremely strong sense of values and morals that do not have room to bend, no gray(this can be very positive.ehh😼, some negative too) That’s the Autism in part, he’s very rigid. That’s actually a positive for teen years...he’s less likely to succumb to peer pressure for certain things 👍🤞🏼also bad because he’s vulnerable... The sweet side is in hibernation right now while the teen side is stretching it’s legs and growing but, I know it’s still in there😬🤞🏼😁🤣

I might have A CHILD but I’m wouldn’t have MY CHILD and as hard as it’s been and it’s been extremely hard, I wouldn’t change being his mom for anything. Well...most days🤫😬some days, I want to trade him for a newer model for a day or 2😁🤫🤫🤫, but that’s just when he’s really being a TEEEENNNNAAAAGERRR😱👹👺🤡😈👿.

Not to give teens a bad name. I actually think teens and young people are the hope for all of us and are going to save the world...eventually... give them a couple of years...it’s just when the “teen” demons have control of them that they’re awful. So, I couldn’t go back, and still have him. Though I’d like to not make the mistakes I made. All in all, especially considering the situation, I did a ehhh 😼decent job so far but the mistakes I did make...that memory is a steel trap and won’t let anything go. And when his brain remembers, it does it like it’s happening right now, so, that’s not always so great...annnnnnddddd of course, the steel trap can’t remember anything good I did😄at least not right now. I was a married single mom in a very unique extreme situation and there wasn’t a playbook🤪🙃🧐🤔😬🤯😥(I always though I was a good mom but, my opinion and his opinion are so different, I’m just not sure anymore but I know I always do my best with what I have and my kid comes first, before anything)

However...I WOULD like to go back to my 20’s, 25 specifically, because that was the age everything changed.I was strong, healthy, and pain free!😃💗👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👍🙏!!!yay! I know what happened, when it happened, what the trigger was, and I’ve been in slow decline ever since as a result and there’s nothing to be done.Not until I’m finished here on earth🙃. Ive fought and clawed and tried to hold on and resist but the die was already cast. My disease will never be cured, at least not by today’s science. I can only deal day by day. Just one of those things😢☹️Now, my 80 year old father in law is getting around better than me😱😁and I’m stuck in a chair most of my life in extreme pain with debilitating fatigue unable to effectively parent my child. That is very frustrating 😡. Just one of those thing...😊☺️ Deal with it, right? That’s what we do!👍👆handle it, whatever comes up, mom’ll handle it, Mom’s got it.(Even the neighbor sends his kids over to ask me what to do, and there’s a mom there!🤣🤣their house is for sale and 💔💔if they move😭😭)

The really frustrating part though is people trying to tell “you what you need to do” to “get better” when they don’t grasp the issue. Even though you’ve tried for 20 years! to explain it!😠😫 that can really take a toll when it’s constant from every direction and people think your just “making excuses to be lazy”. Nobody would go from independent, capable and strong to a chair just to be able to watch all the judge Judy they want!😃grrrrr it’s frustrating. As much as I love my kid, even he’s jumping on that bandwagon recently and that’s disheartening😢 he said it was a cop out. That hurt me to my bones. The ones that were already hurting😁

So, all in all, I’m really good at making lemonade too!😃😃I have a surplus right now, I guess I’m going to have to can it for later👍 I make a mean strawberry🍓🍋lemonade concentrate!😁😃Pour some sprite in that stuff and whoa😳😲🥤It’s a party for your mouth!👅👄🎆🎆🎊🎉 The neighbor kids and my son love it!...but you add the sprite after, you can’t put it in the jar☝️☝️They might explode💥☄️In the pressure canner!😱🤗(that’s going pkooohh, the sound it would make)- how can you spell sounds?🤨seriously, these emojis😗🍋There’s none of the ones I need for how I talk. So, what’s that say? Is it their emojis or the way I Talk? Ask my son & it’s the way I talk because I’m🤤. 🤣🤣

Oh my cantaloupe! I’ve done it again!🏁 Ta👏🏻da!👏🏻🗣🏆🥇🎆🎆🎇🔊 (I had written some very witty stuff but when I tried to post it, the dang thing deleted! And I had forgotten to copy it in it’s entirety first. Sorry, Mott Mott wherever you are, 😍I know, you’re right, I just keep forgetting. I do have memory issues 😜. Anyway, it was my closing because it’s hopefully time my brain will let me sleep. So, I will be witty next time, if you don’t block me after this one🙀🤣

Good mornight (more morning,less night-I think I made it up but spellcheck didn’t go nuts🧐) 😍L Copying first😍

Aha! I tried to post a few times and it wouldn’t. So, I refreshed the page, and then pasted...voila! Post👏🏻🧠