Thread:ZotohZhaan/@comment-36016297-20190604143524/@comment-39542330-20190930130136

Bbbkn wrote: Catherine I send you 52 fixers most days. My schedule is what I consider most important. I send 75 passes after about an hour or two I send 52 of one fixer then I charge friends and then cis if I have time. I’ve deleted you but my code is 0bbs7i if you can put up with passes. It’s entirely up to you. The sickness is troubling but it will get better. Try not to worry so much. What I was trying, and apparently failing, to say earlier that hearing about Hoppy combined with what you said helps put things in perspective. The anemia is a minor problem. Doctors are still trying to figure out what's going on. The neurologist was a complete waste of time. I've been getting shunted from specialist to specialist for the last several months. The anemia just explains why I've been falling asleep at such weird times. tbh, it was a relief hearing there was a reason for what was happening. I was so focused on all the other health problems it never occurred to me to wonder why I kept falling asleep at a moment's notice.

I don't know if I said before, but I used to work in a hospital, plus my mother and aunt were nurses, so I know how bad a person's health can get. I've seen it up close more times than I can count. And not just in a clinical way, as both my my mother and aunt had breast cancer.

I think it's especially difficult for me to have an "enjoy everything" attitude that you describe as I have major depressive disorder. Just being can be exhausting. (I'm going to del this paragragh after you've read it. This is not something I readily admit to people).