Thread:Steffie413/@comment-44680058-20200203025309/@comment-38730017-20200210004410

Sorry about the delay in response from me, again been busy with every day things. I am truly sorry to hear about all of your loses, that is a horrible thing to go through losing so many loved ones especially the ones that are close together. The past two years have been really difficult for me. The loss of my Father, and the loss of three of my pets (I know it’s not the same, but my fur babies are like my children). The losses we different, but still very hard in different ways.

I like to distract myself with games and books, I’ve always been a big reader but even more so the past month. It’s really helping me cope with everything I think. I definitely let myself cry it out when I need to, although sometimes when the thoughts creep up again I try to just push it down because I hate feeling that jolt in my gut...that’s the only way I know how to describe it. I know that time will help to heal it, but the main thing that bothers me is thinking about the things I wish I would have done, or the things I should have said. I know that’s a normal part of grief but it doesn’t make it any less painful. But I do like what you said about focusing on what we have gained instead of what I have lost. I’m going to try to do that more and think of the happy memories, although sometimes that can be painful as it just make me miss them more. I know it will get easier and knowing that the people I still have around me are here for me and I still have a lot of love. Also having friends on here like you who have given me so many words of comfort...I really cannot express how much it means. It definitely does give me a little peace and helps me to cope a little better. Thank you so much.

Hugs, Stef