Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-35284508-20180417160128/@comment-34234929-20180418071432

Bad days are accepted always. RL ALWAYS comes first. I personally have to have several scans next week to see if I have metestatic cancer to my lungs. To say I'm scared and in a tremendous amount of pain is to put it mildly. Add to that my oldest child ( I have a son and daughter, was a teenager parent) my son who be has graduated from UT with a Math degree and working as an Actuarial making around $90000 a year and married his high school sweetheart. He also, because I helped him throughout University was able to obtain a brand new car right out of University at a 3% interest rate because I had developed his credit for him throughout college so when he graduated his credit score was around 780. But we got into an argument over a year ago and no matter what I do or how many much I try to apologise over something that has totally been blown out of proportion, I have not seen or even heard his voice in over a year. Even when I was in ICU last month and they flighted me out to a higher care facility and brought in a preacher to have me fill out a living will he still wouldn't even call me. Not even a text on Christmas, Thanksgiving, my birthday or mother's day. I'm very familiar with curling up in the fetal position by and crying until there are literally no tears left. Sometimes I hate this game so much because of their money making processes, I still play because of all the wonderful people I have met on here. But I realized I have my daughter and myself to try to concentrate on. I hope and pray my son will come around before my time is up, because even though he is angry with me I know he will regr t not being able to see or at least talk to me in my last months. None the less I still love him unconditionally and just hope and pray God will intervene and put a softness and opening in his heart. So please don't feel about bad days and remember the majority of the people on here are wonderful and can provide a great relief from ever day b.s. if you know what I mean want. I hope things get better for you. Your friend Christie.