Thread:Superkenzie/@comment-33437691-20200103172834/@comment-33437691-20200131233316

More and more, we are alike. I will amend your sentiment for my situation and say "I'm sure my mother thought she loved me..." or should that be "I know my mother thought she should love me...." 😉  I'm starting to giggle here. When I was fuming about this yesterday (okay, so I'm not quite over it--it just wasn't fair! and injustice of any kind makes my blood boil) my son again made the point that I am the only one of the three of us who achieved anything. And most of what I've done is post 30, so I wasn't trying to impress her. A definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. I choose sanity.

We, of course, are perfect mothers! Preen, preen. Actually, I like the description "good enough mother" because so-called perfect mothers strike me as being either neurotic themselves or at high risk of raising narcissistic and neurotic kids. Personally, I think I did as good a job as I could within my means; he's 33 as of yesterday, he says he's happy with the life he's had; that's good enough. What I would have liked is irrelevant; it wasn't possible. He does know NOW that I gave him opportunities other kids didn't get,and that that's why trips to MacDonalds were rare treats; of course it was massively unfair at the time.

When my son was in the military I missed him horribly--as well as being scared witless about what could happen. Fortunately, he got sick part way through, missed several weeks of the 12 week basic training and since he would have had to join a new group, he opted out. Hurrah!! When he was much younger, we would watch a war-related movie, where the soldiers were being rained for days on end and he would say "cool!" whereas I would say "the reality is, they are wet and miserable and wishing the hell they weren't there!" He found out that once again, mommy was right!

Do you play other video games? I have a Steam account and have way too many games (some came in bundles), most of which I bought on sale. Take your pick: the mid-week madness sale; the summer/ fall/ winter/ spring, Easter/ Valentine/ Christmas/ Thanksgiving/ AnyPossibleReasonYouCanThinkOf sale. I got started with MYST, way way back, and that was the only series I played up until computer technology made it impossible to play the old games. Enter Steam, with their platform that allows old games to be played on new computers. Eventually I ended up buying a game that worked best with a PS4 controller--what a hoot. I think I racked up 5,000 deaths trying to learn how to work that thing (on the easy level); the game was Ori and the Blind Forest. No human type shooting for me. I've used it for other games now that I've got the hang of it; my son laughs at the way I go after the "enemy" (crabs, jellyfish etc, in The Song of the Deep). He ducks out of my way with great skill!

Have you got the new update yet? I don't wait for it to upload any more; I go straight to the upgrade page and get my thank you present of 5 extra crystals. Then, when Mytona automatically if belatedly updates the game for me a week or so later, I get another 5 crystals (I don't buy them, but I do use what I collect for buying 10 magnifiers at a time when I can't make up a collection.)

Must go! I have set up a temporary e-mail address for you, with the very original name of :  OneTimeUseSN@shaw.ca.

All the best!