Thread:SapphireBlue77/@comment-35319541-20180608082253

I have to appologize to you my dear treasured friend. I am having a hard time responding to each and every post I have recieved, I am so deeply touched by the outpour from my friends, including you, and saved you for later. I feel that as I type this I can "cry in front of you" which I am now doing......for the loss of my brother, for the joys of great friends and the comfort I have been so blessed with thru you all, and the strength I will need in the days ahead. Damn it to hell this Vertigo is my biggest bummer of all, it almost trumps my brother's loss, because I know he is now in a "Better place". It is a harder loss for me somehow though, perhaps because I took care of him for 8 years before he went back up north, and the job of care giving fell on my mom, sis and other brother. I feel I let him down cause I wanted to be the one to help him til his dieing days were over, instead I got sick, and had to let him go up north and become a heavy weight on others. So unfair.......thanks for being there for me my friend, truly. love and hugs lola

ps I hope one day to return this favor to you. IF you ever, I am here for you  