Thread:Chrisiow/@comment-35404353-20180603093133/@comment-35094757-20180603133803

Thanks Wanda (are we game friends?). Pam is actually very nice and while she is friends with the 2 in particular who are the problem, she is friends with me also... which is good. You can't expect everyone to like or dislike who you do. At least she is not judging me on what they think. My biggest problem is that the 2 who are the problem for me are seen to be extremely popular and caring individuals. And on the surface they are. But they both seem to be judging my every word and action. It was like they were looking for things to be offended at and putting meaning to my statements that were not true (but that was my fault apparently). They also accused me of not sending stuff... when I was. They say they send stuff to newbies and don't expect anything in return... well I found out that was a blatant lie. It's even worse because anyone who takes the time to know me, knows I absolutely HATE to not give in return. But all of this was apparently my fault, and speaking up about it made me passive-aggressive and 'woe is me'. At least I'm up front. I really really dislike these 2 people, and at least I got them to show their colours on the page by asking them what I knew the answer to... so that they would be seen.

But I suppose in the long term, I have 'lost', as on the forums I now just limit myself to bland replies on stuff, as I'm afraid to 'be me' for fear of being judged yet again. Because that sucks. No matter how cutesy and fluffy the criticisms are couched. It sucks. It's nasty.