Thread:Chrisiow/@comment-33215561-20180531035730/@comment-35094757-20180531184455

Thanks. Most have made me welecome, but a couple (who are very very popular on the forums) have basically made me feel like dirt, and worry about every little thing I do or say. I've been accused of being many things. It's all done so as to make me seem like a bad person, but it's done craftily. Messages of 'concern' that are really thinly veiled accusations of not being a good friend... of not sending stuff, etc (and I WAS sending stuff)... of it being my fault if I say something in jest (that most seem to get) that they take in the wrong spirit. I just think it is easier to stay away so I can't be put down again, because it's quite demoralising.

The game should be fun, you are right. But it seems too many people 'keep score' and while they want to seem kind and benevolent, and say they really want nothing in return and just like helping lower levels... they really do want something in return, and they want the kudos.

Some, like yourself, and Seabiscuit, and lola, and vikki, and Aileen, and Chase, and Deb, and Nisha, and many many more.. I am so, so grateful to, and I hope someday I can repay you all. Anyone who really knows me, knows that I really do like to give as much as I receive, and sometimes I have felt guilty... so to be accused of not being a good friend... no matter how fluffily it's couched... stings. As does being told you're not friends with someone because of a 'glitch', but that they can't add you because they have enough friends at the moment, but when they have space.. would that be OK? I answered this honestly... No it wouldn't. I could have lied and said 'yes fine'... but I'd have been lying. I'm not so desperate as to be someone's friend.. when they feel they could re-add me. Maybe that's being over-sensitive, but it's being honest. I was accused of over-dramatising it, as I hadn't noticed they'd gone until they said, but somewhat naively I just assumed my friends would be constant and the game would not glitch.

Now I keep a list... but I think I'll ditch it, as it just seems a bit mean, and is taking the fun out of the game... but they have made me feel like every action I do on the game (or comment on the forum) is being judged... and that really is no fun.

Sorry to ramble on. I'm sure you didn't want or expect that. It's just nice to hear a friendly remark, and I felt a need to explain.

Just as you said to me.. if there is anything you need, and it's something I can provide or help with... please ask.

Chris.